So Much On My Mind

These days I'm finding it hard to sleep! My mind just keeps going & going. Next Monday I will be in San Luis Obispo getting ready to pick my man up! Our time apart is almost over! I sooo look forward to hugging & kissing on him any damn time I want :) What does the future hold for us? Nobody knows but I'm can't wait to find out! I plan on loving Justin with all my heart each and every day that's all I know. Our relationship is so wonderful.....I will do whatever I can to help keep it that way. Unlike in my past relationships I will communicate whats on my mind instead of holding all inside. Justin has showed me over & over again it's ok to share my thoughts, fears, concerns, wants, desires, etc. with him without retaliation. He is a great listener among other things! His love is so damn special it is truly the most amazing thing I have ever experienced in my life. It's true, real, and unconditional! Thanks to him my life is worth living! Love you Justin Lee!

Almost Home 11 days

Wow....only 11 days and a wake up until I pickup & meet the man of my dreams! As funny as that sounds it's true. Meeting face to face after all these years.... I'm excited yet scared too. I've thought about our first kiss soooo many times I can't wait to find out how it will really be when the time comes. There is so much to do to prepare for his homecoming! Yes!!! Just a matter of time before we are holding each other tight and saying goodnight! True love sure has changed me!

42 Days & A Wake up

Missing my man like crazy! His love amazes me! Soon I'll be holding him close :) Love you baby

Amazing

It truly amazes me how much I have and continue to learn from this incredible man. He has showed me it's ok to be vulnerable and express my thoughts/feelings. I don't have to hide behind the "I don't care" tough exterior that I have hidden behind most of my life. As strange as it may sound I have comme to realize that even thou I have wanted nothing more than to find someone who loves me as much as I do them I'm not comfortable accepting that love. Justin is everything I've ever wanted loving, kind, caring, affectionate, considerate, funny, protective, patient, and so much more. I'm afraid his love is too good to be true sometimes. My head tells me to run sometimes, but my heart says NO WAY I'm all his and I'm not going anywhere :) Thank God! We will be together finally in 59 more days! I'm looking forward to spending each and every day with the man I love and adore so much.

The Anticipation Is Killing Me

70 days until my baby is FREE !! The anticipation is killing me. I'm so looking forward to being in his arms :) I want to hug & kiss him and NEVER let go! My best friend will be by my side I know that. People say men change once they are released from prison and I shouldn't get my hopes up, but I don't believe Justin will change at all. I believe he will be the same loving, caring, amazing person even after he comes home. It will be so nice to wake up next to him and fall asleep in his arms everyday!! I believe in our love as much as I believe in him! Our days of being alone are coming to an end.... Thank God!

Another Month Down

85 days until the man of my dreams is a free man. I can't wait to kiss & hold him tight! The days are dragging by for me....I'm so ready to start the next chapter in my life! Justin & I are so ready to start our life together. Living with his mom up in Lake Isabella will probably take some getting use to. It will be great seeing him reunited with his family! Time for us to create new memories! I'm excited to hear we will be having "Family" dinner night every Sunday with his mom and grandma. How nice it will feel to be a part of a family! Justin is finally realizing he is almost home..... a new start :) Hurry up May 27th!!!

Only A Few Months Left.....

Finally 2012 has arrived! As of today justin only has 114 days & a wake up left!! I'm so excited...more so for him. He started this journey almost 7 yrs ago a scared 19 yr old not sure what was going to happen once he caught the chain to the big house with the big boys. 7 yrs must have seemed like an eternity to him back then. Now he is just months away from being a free man again! Time for a second chance at life...looking forward to a future as a free man with 2 strikes looming over his head! never forgetting where he has been yet not looking back either. he has come so far over the years. he has grown up years beyond his age! he is coming out of prison a better person/man than he was when he went in! as strange as that sounds it's true! He made some poor choices at first but in the end he realized prison wasn't for him...he wanted more from life! So he changed his ways and his mindset in order to turn his life around. He's learned from his mistakes and has no plans on repeating them! i'm so proud of him! I am so lucky to have this remarkable young man in my life....as my lover and best friend! I look forward to us spending our future together. How long our relationship will last depends on us! if we continue to love & respect each other like we have done over the last 18 mths we should be ok. Never taking our love for granted! We haven't done things the "normal" way but we have done them "our" way. Taken the time to get to know each other better than anyone else ever did, We believe we have found true love & we refuse to walk away from it just because people don't agree or understand our relationship! We are going to live for US!!! Baby our time is almost here!!!!! until then i will continue to love you from miles away! Justin Lee you are amazing!