Phone Calls Change EVERYTHING

In May our ability to talk on the phone came to an abrupt end. Needless to say we had become spoiled by our daily 15 minute talks. I LOVE our letters but they aren't the same as hearing his voice, laughter and silliness among other things. I admit our relationship kind of leveled off for a few months. Last week I was able to have a landline installed just for Justin.. I call it Justin's Love Line :) Oh man what a difference! We laugh so much and we have learned NOT to take our calls for granted! Hearing his voice just calms me and makes my wait so easy. I long for the day we talk freely for as long as we want! holding each other close discussing anything and everything! The closeness we had the past came back instantly!!! I love him more and more EVERYDAY!!!!

New Pictures Of My Baby!

So Lonely Without Him

Hmmm things haven't been all that smooth between Justin and I the last month or so. All I can do is blame it on the "Short Timers Blues". He is getting antzy now that he's realized he is getting closer to the gate! Even though there is 9 mths left he is stressing over a place to parole to. I told him I wwasn't going to get us a place in Orange County until he had 2 mths left. I don't want to live by myself. So he's full of doubts which I understand. I wrote and told him to get a plan B just in case I can't get a place for us by the time he gets paroled. Oh man that didn't go over very well. He took it as I wasn't going to get us a place.... needless to say he tells me he thinks he would be better off being single after being locked up 7 years. Really? Ok...if you think so than I can't stop you. I feel he's full of crap but I haven't been able to talk to him about it....He should be getting my 11 page response any day now! Thank God on Tuesday I was able to get a landline in for him to call! Yes!!! I can't wait to hear his voice again!!! Problem is he won't get that news until the middle of next week :( So I will sit here and wait to hear that wonder ring of the telephone. Heck it's been so long since I've had a landline I'm not sure if I even remember what it sounds like :) I call it my Justinline! Hopefully once we can talk to each other we will get over this little hurdle of ours and start heading for the finiah line! TOGETHER.

Meeting The Family

After talking to Justin's Ma on the phone for the past few months I decided why not meet her in person. We get along great. She makes me laugh just like he does. He got his personality from her thats for sure! So we decided I would drive up to her place at Lake Isabella, CA for the 4th of July weekend. I live in Southern California so it was a nice 3 - 3 1/2 hour drive. Uneventful and peaceful drive. Thank God I got a country radio station almost the whole way! Yeeehaw. When I arrived Friday afternoon his Ma greeted me with a big hug and a comment about me wearing a sundress :) I told her I wasn't a girly girl so she must have expected a lil tomboy to pull up! I felt right at home from the second I stepped on her front porch. It was soooo hot up there. She took me to a nice local park along the Kern River. We hungout for awhile then headed home. She made a great dinner and we just kicked it for the night. On Saturday we went to a local camping area to see if we could locate Justins brother...and sure enough we did. I met him and a couple of his buddies. Seemed nice but quiet. I met his girlfriend later on in the day. Due to the heat and the holiday crowds it was impossible to find a place to jump in the lake. We decided we would just chill at home. Sunday I met Justin's Granny. She was very sweet too. Had us over for BBQ ribs which were awesome. I had to excuse myself early so I could get back to the house just in case Justin called...no such luck. I can't remember if the fireworks show was on Saturday or Sunday night but it was GREAT show. I watched it perfect from her frontyard...tears streaming down my face because I realized this time next year Justin will be FREE to share the fireworks with me! What a great thought that was. On Monday we did head to a spot at the lake but we didn't stay more than 10 minutes. Maybe next time. I left first thing Tuesday morning, but I didn't want to leave! I had a great time. I learned so much more about Justin that I went away loving him even more than I did when I got there! I have to say I really enjoyed meeting Justin's family...they made me feel like I was already a part of it!